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180: Do Over

Wed, 30 May 2007 17:03:17 GMT

If I was able to do stuff over I'd have to say the thing I would is how I behaved for my grandmother. I know I had to of driven that woman crazy and I'm sure there were a few days she wished she didn't have to put up with me.

I mean I know I didn't turn out bad, in the end. There were a lot of patchy and gray areas. She never did give up hope on me and she was always there to give a good smack upside the head to knock some sense into me when it was needed. And it was needed a lot, I can admit that.

[locked from Catherine]

I'd also take back the whole married to Tina thing. It was rushed and I know it. Me and Tina never worked out married really. I was at work late hours and I come to find out she was with her ex all the time. That and I was in love with someone else the entire time. Give me a do over and I'd tell Catherine how I felt in that moment instead of marrying Tina. I would have told Catherine that I loved her. Then there wouldn't have been that painful awkward moment where she noticed my wedding band. Maybe I'd be happier if I had just told her.

[unlocked]

Guess everyone has a few things they'd like to have a do over for, it's human nature to make mistakes and wish you hadn't. To wish you could take them back.

Warrick Brown
CSI: Las Vegas
254 words

174: Would you ever kill a human being?

Tue, 17 Apr 2007 03:23:36 GMT

Everyone has it within them under the right circumstance. If you are threatened adrenaline pumping can drive you to the primal need to survive.

In my line of work things can get dangerous. Some people think that just because I'm in forensics that nothing can really happen. If that were true we wouldn't have to get certification to carry a firearm. We would never have to draw our weapons.

Anything can happen when you are dealing with desperate people. People that would kill someone have nothing to lose besides their freedom. Some of them will go down fighting. They'd rather die then be locked in a cage.

Now you asked me if I'd ever kill a human being. The answer is simple. Yes. Now it's not like I'm going to go open fire on people. If it comes down to survival and protecting my friends then yes I'll do whatever it takes. Not something I want to do but will do if I need to.

Warrick Brown
CSI: Las Vegas
163 words

Tm #173: Write a Fan Letter

Sun, 08 Apr 2007 00:56:20 GMT

Warrick sat and thought about who he could write a fan letter to. He could write one to an actor he liked, or perhaps a singer or band. Maybe an athlete he admired. Then he leaned back and smiled taking out a few pieces of paper figuring a fan letter can be sent to anyone he admired in some way and so he set forward to writing them.

Dear grandma,

I know you are no longer here with me but I know you are watching over me and I think about you everyday. I know I gave you some trouble, okay okay a lot of trouble like the time I stole your car. Or I got in trouble in school for fighting. I miss coming over to your house, miss your baking, your chiding to tell me to behave myself and stay out of trouble. I've been trying my best and hoping I'm making you proud with how my life has gone. Since the age of seven you have been molding me helping me. Trying to make me into a good man and I'm sorry I strayed from that but I'm on the right path right now. Your memory keeps me there. I love you very much.

Love your grandson

He leaned back and smiled reading it over folding it gently and stuffing it into an envelope and grabbed another sheet of paper. He tapped his pen quietly then smiled.

Nicky,

You know you've always been there for me man. I'm glad for it everyone needs a good friend like you. Anytime you need it man I've got your back just like I know you got mine.

Rick

He chuckled putting it away maybe he wasn't following the rules on the fan letters but he was doing things his way.

Catherine,

What can I say to you. You are an amazing woman and just watching you gives me a glimpse into what my grandmother had to have gone through. Being a sinle caretaker is a hard job and you've done great with it. I really admire you for that. To top it all off you are a wonderful woman to work with. I'm glad through everything we remained close because it's a relationship I hold dear.

Warrick

He looked over the letter to Catherine there was so much he wanted to say to her. So much that just wouldn't seem important if just jotted down on a piece of paper. He smiled and set it in the envelope and leaned back thinking quietly. He looked to his letters he had written and thought.

Greggo

You are a great guy and fun guy to work with. I may have never made it clear over the years we have worked together but thank you. Thank you for always being there to offer a bit of insight and put in your theories many of which have actually panned out and helped me solve a case. Credit for some of those cases are as much yours as they were mine. Keep it up and don't let anything get you down.

Warrick

He saw he was beginning to write one to each of his team members and shook his head it wasn't just those celebrities out there that needed fanmail. The everyday person needed it too and so he continued on and took out another piece of paper.

Sara

I didn't like you much at first I can admit that. Then again our meeting was entirely by my own screw up and I know this. Just the thought of you someone I didn't know coming in and snooping into my life pissed me off. It's been quite a bit of years later now and you are still here and I can honestly say now I'm glad you are. As strained as our relationship has been in the beginning you are someone I'd trust my life with now.

Warrick

He chuckled at the letter to Sara it was true he had depised her being the snoop Grissom had called in to spy on his life. He resented her for a long time but she grew on him and had proven herself several times over.

Brass

Miss working under ya yuo were a pretty damn good boss, but I see you are a better homicide cop. Glad you found a place you settled into nicely.

Warrick

He had written a note to practically everyone and looked down at the blank sheet of paper the one he already knew it belonged to. He thought a bit and set to writing just letting whatever came to mind end up on paper. Maybe Grissom would appreciate this way of doing it.

Grissom,

Man what can I say to you? Over the years you've been a teacher, a mentor, and in a lot of ways a father figure since I never knew mine. You've scolded me when I've done something wrong, you pushed me to look into things deeper then I did. You always made me work harder each time until I could see passed the surface and see the clues lingering underneath. You gave me pointers and advice in your own little suble way of doing things with your little quotes from Frost or whoever inspires something in you at the time. Every piece of advice you've ever given me, every little riddle to get me to think have helped me grow into a better CSI. You are many things rolled into one Grissom, my boss, my teacher, my mentor, my friend, and my father. Might make you uneasy with that but can't change that's what you are like. You've given direction when needed, discipline when neccessary. You gave me another chance when I screwed up with the whole gambling thing and you had faith in me that I'd get through it. Without that I may have fallen back into my life as a casino runner, or maybe worse. Thanks Grissom.

Warrick

PS: You were right, the rollercoaster was cleansing. I may be hooked.

He folded it up and stuffed it in an envelope all his team would find these letters in their lockers, Grissom's would be on his desk. His grandmother's he stopped off before worse and placed it on her grave with a rose and smiled heading off on another day. So he wasn't good at being a fanboy and writing a fan letter, instead he wrote appreciation letters.

Warrick Brown
CSI: Las Vegas
1,042 words
ooc note: so Warrick couldn't think of a celeb to send a fan letter to instead he chose this route lol. All letters to their perspective person is open to be commented to.

172: If you could pick anyone in the world, alive or dead, to be your parents, who would it be? Why?

Fri, 30 Mar 2007 17:01:38 GMT

It'd be the woman that raised me, my grandmother. To me she was the epitome of what a parent was. I never met my father, he was long gone before I came around as it seems a lot of men go the way of. Maybe he wasn't ready to be a father, or maybe it was he just didn't want to be one. He was never part of my life even though he helped create mine. My mom she was nice, she took good care of me until she died when I was just seven years old.

It was then my maternal grandmother took over raising me. She was an amazing woman who took a wild little boy in. She was strict but she loved me. She didn't give up on me at any time. Not even when I was thirteen and I stole her car for a little joyride. I knew she might tan my hide but I knew she'd still love me. It's what confuses me a lot about some parents today, their kids act up some and they are just ready to toss them away or lock them up.

Guess in the end I wouldn't change who my parents were because to do that would be taking a chance that the woman that nurtured me and helped me grow into the man I am, may not have been in my life. It's hard to imagine her not being here even now that she has passed on.

Warrick Brown
CSI: Las Vegas
247 words

TM #171: What's the Biggest Mistake You've Ever Made in a Relationship?

Thu, 29 Mar 2007 18:33:46 GMT

Man where should I start? I've made more then one let me tell you. Now we talking romantic relationship or just a personal friendly type one?

Now as for personal non romantic relationships guess my biggest there was doing things I know my grandmother would tan my hide even more for. I mean the whole runner for a bookie thing would of pissed her off. I know she would have lamented and prayed to find where she went wrong with me. She gave up a lot to raise me I know it had to have been hard on her to be saddled with raising a grandchild. She was amazing though and all I did was so I could help her out so she didn't have to be responsible for everything. Though putting myself in that line of work was a mistake that would come back to haunt me. I was afraid though she'd find out and she'd be disappointed in me. I only ever wanted to make her proud.

Then there was the thing with Catherine. I know I loved her but something just always got in the way. Maybe it was an inner deep fear of both of ours to get involved with someone at work. To take the chance of wrecking a good working rapport. My mistake was never pursuing it and now I'll never know what could of been. Another mistake with Catherine was letting her find out I was married the way she had. I wanted to tell her, I was afraid yes she'd be hurt but she knew about Tina.

Which brings me to my marriage to Tina, my biggest mistake. It was too rushed and maybe there were doubts in the relationship to begin with. After what happened to Nick it was like a slap in the face of my own mortality. Not that I thought I was a god and couldn't be hurt, but someone that close to me. It's like a kick in the ass really. I hadn't even been seeing Tina that long when I rushed into marriage. Seize the day my ass, that was the worse mistake of my life. While I was busy working long hours on cases that just needed it she was off with her ex she worked with finding comfort in his bed. Needless to say my marriage ended almost as quickly as it started.

Maybe it's true in my line of work we aren't meant to have romantic relationships. That they are doomed from the start because of long hours and the things we see everyday. The nightmares that some of the cases have given me that keep me up at night sitting out on my porch at night. Not good things for a relationship I guess.

Least the relationships I have with the others of my team are in good standing. My extended family is what they are. Grissom is like the father. Greg the smart assed little brother. Nick the good natured brother close to my age. Sara the snarky little sister. Catherine well, maybe there's more there then a family like viewing.

Warrick Brown
CSI: Vegas
516 Words

Drinks with Nick _nickstokes_ (left open to other CSI Pups as well)

Tue, 06 Mar 2007 05:39:22 GMT

*He smiled as Nick came back with his jacket nodding*

Sure man steak and eggs sound good. I haven't eaten in awhile so some food would be good.

167: Write about disappointment or disillusion.

Sat, 24 Feb 2007 06:49:12 GMT

I've had many disappointments in my life, some my own fault and some beyond my control.

The biggest disappointment on a personal level? I failed at marriage. I tried it and I just failed. Maybe it's because I chose the wrong person. Maybe I let the right one who was right in front of me go. I was afraid of hurting a friendship, a working rapport. In the end maybe she's just the one I needed in the end, and maybe I'll never know.

Gambling and how I got lost in it was another thing I'm not proud of. I disappointed myself with that, when I thought myself strong enough to not fall into that pigeonhole. It took me a lot and if I didn't have my co-workers, my friends, I may have never gotten out of it.

Now is the time to change all that, to take control of my life and maybe erase some of those disappointments in life. I'll find out soon about one.

Warrick Brown
CSI: Las Vegas
164 words

Do you believe in ghosts? for theatrical_muse

Mon, 19 Feb 2007 00:16:37 GMT

As a scientist I'd have to say that I didn't believe in ghosts as there is no scientific findings that support their existance. Everything people say is a ghost most times is explained away by some scientific findings.

That doesn't mean however that I don't believe in ghosts because I do.

There has to be something to that light tingle along my spine when I'm at a crime scene. Or that something that makes me look in a different direction then I was to catch something small that may have gone unnoticed. Or just in the middle of doing something when a hunch, an idea creeps up on me that just takes the case in an unseen direction and leads to the case being solved.

I know most call it intuition but it's my belief there is something there as well guiding it, the ghosts of the victims screaming for retribution. Begging to be let free so they can rest knowing their family has the closure they deserve.

Warrick Brown
CSI: Las Vegas
167 words

Muse Playground #57

Thu, 08 Feb 2007 05:36:02 GMT

They warn you about killers and thieves in night, I worry about cancer and living right. But my mama never warned me about my own Destructive appetite

Growing up I was told about the evils Las Vegas could tempt someone with, but I always said it would never happen to me. But wouldn't you know? It caught grip of me tightly. I never had my father around to teach me much, don't even know who the man is. My mother passed away when I was seven, so it fell upon my grandmother to raise me. She was strict and when I was working as runner I had to keep that hidden or she'd tan my hide more then it already is.

I think that was the start of my downfall. Being around the casinos, seeing how everything worked. I acquired a bad gambling problem and it spilled over into my work. I left Holly Gribbs alone on her first night to place a bet for a judge. And because of my addiction she lost her life because I wasn't there to back her up. I let her down and she was part of my team. I let my wanting to get that promotion and doing whatever it took to cloud my judgment. It was that moment I knew Vegas had seduced me to it's sinful side.

I still struggle when I'm in a casino but I know what kind of man I can be if i let it take over again. A man I do not want to be.

Warrick Brown
CSI: Las Vegas
230 Words